Prequel Before CNY

I just realised that it has been a long time since I posted a picture in my blog. Well CNY is just round the corner, and because of work, I dun even have time to clean my room yet. It was a super busy and dramatic week. This week was actually the first time that I was going to teach a class. Somemore my first time had to be 5 classes in a row. I came up with this wesome lesson plan that was apparently so good that it created more stress... =.= Namely because the method I employed was so creative that the whole geography department heard of its success in the first class I went to and so all wanted to sit in for my lesson to see my so called 'puppet show'. So imagine, a class of students with a teacher teaching and 5 other teachers sitting behind to watch zzzzzz.

But really I think I outdone myself LOLOLOL. I thought my way of teaching the flexible production system was awesome. haha. So my supervising mentor's comments were that I was very serious and diligent. The students could see that I was sincere because i memorised all their names even before they even met me. (I actually asked the teachers to give me the class list to memorise ahah) The puppetshow idea was also really brilliant and good. So in short they said I was a good teacher ^^V. Even for chemistry practical. I was taking the chemistry practical lesson that day as well... The teacher said I was actually not bad at all =D Well even though probably I could do teaching, the thing was I am damn tired =/ I mean I have to teach the EXACT same lecture for all my geography classes. Same thing over and over. I so sian by the second lesson already =.= GOSH. and next week, I have to do the same lesson for 2 other classes. =.='''''''''''''''''''''''

Oh OH and I actually brought into class this tibetian bell to control the students when they were too noisy and it worked like a charm. AWESOME. One student actually said...' Cher... u SO COOL' XD LOLOLOL Well enough about the teaching thing. So basically my week went by like that because all the lessons were killing me like SERIOUSLY =.= Thank all our teachers REALLY, becuz being a teacher is SO SO HARD. And I am not even handling any CCA or marking. That would have made my life utter hell zzzzz.

So went shopping for new year clothes on my own today. Got all these cool clothes and I was quite shock how I could spend $500 in an hour to buy my new year clothes. But oh well... the $$$ is given by my parents for new year shopping anyways hahaha. So might as well spend all. I bought so much branded goods la my god. lol One polo tee i buy for $70+. But it was really nice hee

To end things all up for today... I just wanna say that... I guess the time is about to be here again... I'll definitely say something, becuz i hardly get a chance. But I will always know that it will nvr happen... =/ But I just want u to know that... I'm really not kidding or saying things lightly when I do... I was being... genuine about it... =X I'm not that great after all... it's true =/ In fact that sentence thrown at me last time is still left etched in me... That I recall it ever so often that it reminds me that I am nvr that perfect in anything... Nvr truely deserving things unless it is earned through work and time... actually... I really have nothing to counter =X It is as it is said... not that great... ... =/

First Time Worker

This would be the very first time that I am actually earning a salary for myself. lol. I have to say this though... In the 2 weeks and a bit that I have been in MI doing teaching internship, I really really have a new found appreciation for teachers. being a teacher is really so HARD and so tiring. I usually just come home and collapse without noticing. And worst is when I wake up there is still answer keys to rush for deadline, past year qn compilation works and of couse preapring for lessons and doing the homework of finding interesting videos and all to share during the lecture/tutorial class. =/

I'm dead beat. Dun even have time to like post blog posts for the past few days. It's just stress and more stress. This thursday I am like going to have 8 periods of lecture with 4 different classes... zzzz And to be honest I am like damn nervous that I will be like all shakey or experience technical difficulties. I seek refuge in my dreams only to have dreams of me teaching in school =.= When I wake up it's like I just came back from work like that =////

Teaching definitely has it's good sides. I mean the satisfaction of it all when a student gets it. And seeing students do well and acknowledge u is just awesome. But not to brag or anything. But I realise that my chemistry is really quite powerful ah LOLOLOL. I won't lose to RJC ppl and some concepts I am actually stronger than the new teachers haha probably cuz I just took A levels so the concepts are fresh in my mind. Still makes me kinda happy though HAHAHA. P.S I also have like some uni knowledge from the chemistry olympied thing so ^^V. kk enough bragging.

Actually the reason why I posted today is becuz I suddenly have this thought and feeling. Actually kinda miss certain times and images of ppl seem to get blurred with time. I'm starting to wonder if it is going to be soon forgotten. Where layers and layers of sand cover things up. The sands of time and the derbis of saturated work life. If it is so I truely feel sad... As I struggle to find that feeling back only to find it diminishing every single day, as I hold on tight to what is to soon probably be ethereal.

Until that day comes... I will try my very bestest to keep that feeling. Becuz forever means something in some point of one's life. And to see forever be validated by harsh reality it just goes to show how dreams can never ever come true. to pretend that I dun care is just running away. Becuz things do matter to me. But I am human =X I can only try, never to know the outcome. But I know i will nvr be satisfied if things go on like this. So I'll try... =/

I watched a shojo anime... only to start having new expectations. Gosh anime poisoning again =.=

Sunny Days and Thoughts

It has been quite awhile since I last posted something. But was either too busy or too tired to do so. Being a teacher is really very tiring and life-draining curiously. It kind of makes me really appreciate my teachers for who they were and what they did. I came into this teaching internship initially to be truthful just to prove myself worthy that I could be selected because teaching was never really something I wanted to do. But these few days have sort of proved me wrong.

Because as busy as I am... I realise that I am enjoying every single day. Sure, going home by taking 2 buses is really really really ANNOYING. But the time I spend in school I really do find myself happy. So... perhaps teaching ain't so bad after all. And to boost, my geography is really really powerful right now. I've even got to master my urban topic even though I didn't study it for my A levels. ^^V Being attach to the Drama club as my CCA has been one of the greatest things that have happened so far. I got to have my face painted =) and the students also like invite me to rehearse with them. This was a time I got to show off my drama-skills LOL and get credited for it hohoho

Chemistry practical sessions are extremely exciting. I get to see organic synthesis reactions which are AWESOME btw. They actually did the synthesis of azo-dye which JJ nvr let us do zzzzz. So that's all I have to say for work. Avidly preparing for lessons and doing my homework of memorising the whole class's name because if they are willing to learn then I will put in the effort to do my homework to get to know the students better =) That and I probably need to read up more on geography current affairs because I lack the width to share interesting info with the class. =X That being said... I am aspiring to be a strong, independent individual. Fingers crossed though that a lvls get all As.... Something that goes through my mind everyday =////

Been thinking of some rather intriguing notions which is interesting in it's own way. Depressing things too perhaps... and also a harsh reality to face =/ Ah well... that's all I have to write for today