Dear XXX,
What happened exactly? I've been trying very hard to establish contact again but somehow you have not been responding at all... Did I do something wrong? I feel like I've been doing CPR non-stop on a dead person and it's starting to tire me and make me seriously wonder what I actually did to make you want to avoid me and shun this much...
It would seem like the logical thing to do to just stop trying right? I also told myself the same thing every time I sent out an SMS hoping to get a reply... But only to be disappointed when I received nothing...
It's quite stupid really... I mean I see myself trying so badly to get to someone who probably left. But I can't help it at all... Would knowing why stop all this? And somehow deep inside I sort of feel that the answer wouldn't be a pleasant one... But ah hahaha... I refused to give up.
Will you tell me some painful words so that I'll stop trying? I'm too stubborn to see I guess? Too stubborn to see that I've in fact been trying to hold on to something non-existent. I mean seriously who holds on so hard to friendships? People would probably understand if I were talking about a r/s. But sadly it isn't...
Have I really grown up? Or am I still behaving like a kid?
You tell me... ... =/
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