Pretence

Am I really trying to lie to the world? Trying to become someone else just so I can hide myself~~

I'm so confused right now.

Because at that point in time when I took that leap of faith I wanted to give it my all to transform myself into someone else just so I could forget the old self and abandon the old memories. But was it right to do so in the first place. Desperately trying to submerge myself and perhaps pretend to be contented and enlightened when deep inside nothing changed.


I tried to lie to the world and to some extent it worked; I tried to lie to myself thinking it was possible but it was to laugh that at the end of the day the deep dark secret I buried deep was that I told a lie. I told a lie to myself~~