A Wish Below The Capricorn Stars

I am a Capricorn and I receive the quiet yet powerful forces from my guardian constellation every single second of my being... Sometimes, I wonder if attributes of a Capricorn are a curse: The powerful drive in life that propels me towards achieving my goals that could also backfire when concentrated on the wrong things... =X

Friends have told me time and again about my condition. But one thing I know I won't commit again... and that is to be too paranoid. Take things with a pinch of salt bah, because maybe things which are not yours are just not meant for u. Time is your enemy but also your friend. To wish for an 'arc of time' to find back lost happiness will always be just a fantasy. Would I wish to turn back time to restore a moment in time I made? I don't think I would... because... without those pasts there could be no new beginnings. Without the pain... all those years would not have been called living...

I'm living now and I wish under my Capricorn constellation-hoping my guardian stars will hear- I wish.... for nothing more but a silent reassurance of myself =X

Unbending Mantra

I dun understand sometimes... I really dun understand. I look at the world and make my views and sometimes when I share them with my friends they find me melodramatic. I wonder though. sometimes, whether they were right after all. That maybe all this while I've been making a mountain out of a molehill. Focusing too much on the small details and magnifying them with my own mind. Because in the long run, life would've been twice as easy without our brains constantly thinking too much into things.

We all meet with our downfalls, because the road to the end is filled with ups and downs. It is a winding road that sometimes bring us to where we started or maybe it even swerves to the sides and we meet with the most unexpected things in life. I won't deny... sometimes I find myself having double standards and I know deep inside I am selfish after all even though I do wish I were the selfless one that wants to help people as much as I can.

Just as now I am dealing with issues. And it sucks because I have always realised this flaw of mine: My work efficiency decreases dramatically when my emotions are at their peak. And still I remember a good friend of mine once told me: If you're going through hell, keep on going. I know... u know... I know that I won't die... That everything will turn out fine in the long run because nothing lasts forever... But it hurts you know? IT hurts because I am human and I feel the emotions gnawing away at my heart and soul... and it sucks to feel sucky... But all I can do is to recite this mantra... I wish so much... to tell someone and share...