Ever walked at a point in life when you suddenly meet the end of the road? Just like when you were running in a marathon or cross country and just when you are going to turn another corner you spot the end point at a distance. And then you look back and see how far you had ran... How much you had struggled? How many points in time had you played cheat and walked or just came to a halt to catch a breath?
Really funny how time seems to prolong when you were living through them. Yet re-living each and every fragment of memory they seem to flash forward in an instant. How does someone do that? I mean to remember so many so many months worth of things in minutes? o.o
Yet when I see the end point I suddenly slow down and treasure all those struggles and instances when I literally had to worm through and grind my teeth in silence. While others seem to make that final sprint for the finishing line which I see right now... All I want is to slow down to a stroll and take in every bit of my surroundings and think back to a time. Think back to a time when everything first started... The start when I set for myself so many goals in this 2 years of my life... and then counting how many I had managed to meet; how many had turned out the other way~~
What have I learnt all this while? How much have I changed?
But like all things... whether I want it or not... It's just nature's way that things just happen and progress this way. Just that... just that... one thing that brings me much pain~~ It's that:
A filled cup can never be filled anymore... Because everyone started off as human beings with human limits and ended off no different. If we ever wanted more, we had to lose some. That is why I guess greed is sin... And so is covet wrong in the commandments. We could never had asked for any more than what we could take in~ that's how god wanted and hence what we got.
A year from now when I am in uni... and I happen to chance upon photos taken to capture frozen memories in time would I have that kind of flashes in the head and feelings welling in the heart? How much time well-spent/wasted/treasured/nagged/vexed/smiled~~ ~~
