Nobody knows what it's like... to be the bad man... To be the sad man... Because all my friends probably don't care that much any more... I have been superbly depressed for a long time... =/// I feel alone with no one to talk to, and everyday when I wake up and see things and feel things they really hurt me more than anything else. I promised that for work I will not let much of my emotions get to me. It's true I kept that promise. Because at work I don't really show much depression... But when I'm off from work... please I beg you... please just let me be sad because that's how I really feel... Nothing can help much anymore...
Deep down I cried and sometimes during normal working hours tears streak down when I am at a quiet corner. But I'm glad no one notices... I'm not one easy to handle because I am too depressed. I mourn over something lost... since the day it happened... And I realized I never stopped bleeding until today =X Because I have a feeling that... no one was there for me and neither did I have anyone I wanted to turn to when I didn't want to talk but just release a reservoir behind those eyes... =/
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